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Love Insecurity

2004-07-11|3:03 a.m.

It's been a long time since I have written... I tend to doubt this will be read by many - but that is a good thing. I am in a contemplative mood - and I doubt there will be any jokes or humor in this entry.

For about the last three months I have been dating a fantastic girl named Julie.

It's scary how well she reads me. She can tell what I am thinking more often than I care to admit... In all honesty, at times I am a little freaked out by it.

She really is a great girl - and I am as close to love as I have been in quite some time.

What scares me is that sometimes we have days that are just 'okay'. Not bad days, but days where it is obvious that the newness of the relationship has worn off.

I know that not every day can be a great one - and the newness of a relationship does not last. But when we have a day like that, sometimes part of me wonders 'is it over?' 'has she come to her senses?' 'is she going to break up with me?'

The feeling is not always there - just sometimes... When I do feel it, something happens and I know that things are going to be fine.

She's out of town visiting her parents and college friends. The last time we saw each other was one of the 'just okay' days.

I miss her and I want to know that all is well. She'll be home on Tuesday. I guess time will tell.

Previously on Ramblin' Bill -- In The Year 2000!

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